Posts Tagged ‘sanctuary’

Okay, not really.

But I cannot for the life of me CALM DOWN enough to go to sleep.  What is UP with this?  I did just get a job offer today!  So my mind is going like a mad woman trying to get it all together.  The money, the benefits, getting the kids to/from school, kids homework (they are mostly home schooled), long hours working (yes, this is the case – the *job* has a possibility of travel – and definately loooong hours).

So many things in my head.

Oh I cannot sleep.

I even just got done writing in my journal-journal. You know, the kind you really use a pen and write in?  Yes, I actually still have one of those.  I can’t tell ya’ll everything ya know.  Well, close to it…

Oh someone hit me over the head! 

Okay, that’s it – it’s tea time (decaf ofcourse).

I’m gonna go do some night work out in the sanctuary – very dark in there, and well… if I fall asleep, I might have a racoon or something on my lap.  With my luck it will be a frog or three.

ARGH

Need.  Sleep.  Now.

I told you all about the “sanctuary” I had envisioned for my backyard.  I’m someone that loves Mother Nature, and loves her space to meditate.  Usually that means outside of the house and closer to anything nature.

In suburbia, finding nature is difficult.  My neighbors have a beautiful tree that seems to love coming over into our yard – thankfully.  It was in that corner of my yard I planned out my sanctuary.

I thought I’d show you thusfar where we are at with this endeavor.

These are in order and the only things left are the roof, painting and the interior.  But here she is:

The Corner Before Work Began

Deck for Flooring Set

Deck Flooring

Framing Up

Framing Up - Closer

Some Siding Up

Almost Done!

The funky tarp over the top is simply because it’s been raining.  What you probobly cannot see at all is that inside there is a candle chandelier, a cozy wicker chair, candles and insence burner.

The front will have drapes to close off the doorway.  I do work in a dark environment.  Work on me that is.  I do my meditation by candlelight.  The tree does hang over so I get to get the vibe from my friend Mr. Tree.

Inside the feeling is absolutely wonderful.

I have yet to plant most of the plants around it, as I have to paint – this weekend?  And dig next to it for a fountain.

Well, yes… my tushie is crazy today.  Why you ask?

I’m on my 6th day officially smoke free.  I did it THIS time cold turkey.  Wowza.  Here’s what it’s like:

1. I’ve gone nuts – as evident by chasing my boys (16 & 17 – both over 6′ tall and over 220lbs) through Starbucks with a teddy bear.
2. Wanting to scream at the top of my lungs (which, btw actually hold AIR now)
3. Burning SO much incense ’cause – WOW – I can smell it even better
4. Yelling at my hubby (oh I’m horrid today!)
5. Crying in bed wrapped in a blanket in a neo-natal position
6. Laying in the backyard on my back in my ALMOST completed sanctuary staring so deeply into the blue sky I feel like I was flying

It’s a crazy day – but I feel and smell so wonderful.

My Father In Law passed away last October – I promised him I would stop soon, he told me he’d come after me if I didn’t.    He was an ornery old coot – and died of lung cancer.  In being his “honorary daughter” and someone he shared with at the end in the most spiritual way I could have ever imagined – I’m taking control of my physical life because he said I’d be much happier if I lived healthy.

I believe you Harold… and feel you near me every moment I think of you.  I love you and I miss you so so so much.

Love and Light,

Monica

QuitMeter Counter courtesy of www.quitmeter.com.

~ There will be a dedication post to Harold, it’s just I get to be a bit more stable when I write it ~

I’m still alive!  All is well!

I talked last week about my company and I have to say it’s taken over this whole week!

Dawn & Kids - Dawn's Wedding

Last weekend was awesome – I had a heart to heart with my step-son.  I felt like we had a bit of a wedge growing between us.  We did, as it turns out, and after talking to the little man, we are good to go.  The photo above is of my best friend Dawn (at her wedding ofcourse), my step-son Daniel and the little princess in the back is Marissa, Dawn’s Daughter.  Handsome guy huh?

One thing about my step-son he is extremely *empathic*.  He senses folks feelings – and I mean in a big way!  Trouble is, he can’t read me.  That makes him a bit nervous around me.  He said this, not me.  He’s very articulate!  I love that kid so flippin’ much.  I have a way of blocking my feelings from folks, it’s habitual.  I just didn’t mean to do it with him.  We had a great talk and I get to work on it – and he gets to work on talking about it when things bother him. 

But the whole rest of the week has been taken up by my business.  I went to that Networking group (wow, awesome group of professionals!), new clients, issues with a client’s QuickBooks file (argh!) and going through my certification for QuickBooks.

The certification is about 20 hours long.  It’s in depth and difficult at times, but it’s perfect to freshen up and let others know I know what I’m doin! 

QuickBooks Certified Pro-Advisor

Full week, I’m not done with my certification yet – I’ll be workin’ on that all weekend.

I will be working on the certification through Sunday.  My husband is gone this weekend to Utah for training at Impact Trainings (he is currently in Life Mastery Training 2) and I will be going in the next few weeks (finally! – Life Mastery Training 1).  If you are interested – it’s www.impacttrainings.com.

No hubby ’till Sunday!  … I couldn’t sleep last night ’cause he wasn’t in bed …

OH!  The foundation has been set on my Sanctuary!  I’m totally excited!  Here’s some pics!  Groundwork – it’s a 10×10 with 5′ entrance.  I designed it myself! As soon as it’s finished I can add my plants, fountain, etc.  Whoot!

Backyard Sanctuary

Backyard Sactuary - Foundation Set

The builder will be back this Saturday to put up the walls and set for the roof, or however that goes.

Love and Light folks, wish me luck on my Certification testing!

Here’s Indy – he sleeps on his back with his legs up, he’s such a GOOF!

Indiana Jones - Caught on his Back Again!

Oh, this isn’t a rant.  Nor a complaint.

You see, I joined EntreCard to find new blogs.  I love reading how others are doing, and getting thoughts and opinions from all over the world.  I love people, it’s just in my Universal *Blood* so to speak.

So, with EntreCard I’ve found literally hundreds of blogs I enjoy daily with feeds.  Yes, really.  I do read my feeds when I can, and make sure I comment back etc.

The hurt to my Visa has only just started.

You see, there are artists in them thar hills!  There are quite a few artists that have blogs and also have shops on Etsy.

Good news was, I had no money for a bit ~ hey, it happens.

Bad news is, I have a bit of cash-ola ~ and a project going on that needs little *touches* so to speak.  What better way to add a touch to an outdoor sanctuary garden than a miniature fairy house!

I found this gem at Enchanted Garden’s shop on Etsy.

EDIT – Oh my GOSH she has a whole nother shop online… Enchanted Miniature Fairy Garden.  My garden would be so excited!

Oh, it has just started!

Ofcourse I found a great birthday present for my niece over at Strawberry Anarchy’s Shop.  That little baby is below.

These photos are from their shops, so if either would like them removed ~ please let me know!  Not a problem at all!  But, I loves your stuff!

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There was a time where I had a little *hut* in the backyard that I deemed my sanctuary.  It was wonderful, and such a peaceful place.  It may have only been a gazebo with decoration, but it was truly my solitude.

I would meditate quite well in the sanctuary, my little private space, especially at night.

With chairs so comfy, a rug to sit on and candles galore – I even covered the outside with bamboo *fencing* for privacy.

Ah, it was truly special.

Then…

The wind blew her away.  Maybe only 10 feet or so, but it destroyed the weak metal supporting my sanctuary and broke most everything inside.

It was secured by hand weights.  25lbs in 2 corners opposing eachother, and 10lb in the other 2 corners to keep it from toppling.  OR so I thought.

With the wind’s might – the amount of weight on the four corners were no match.  As quick as a moment, my sanctuary was utterly destroyed.

So, next – a new sactuary.  Sturdier and built by my husband and I.

I’ve even drawn plans of my little *get away* in the back.

It’s funny how much I’m looking foward to it.

Here’s my ever so creative drawing:

Oh this should be fun…

I’ll give you a bit of my belief for a moment.  I am a spiritual being having a physical experience. I personally believe we live our lives here to *learn*.  I do not believe in a heaven or hell.  I believe that when we die we are all together in our spiritual light – all of us.  Yes, even those you would think or perhaps *hope* would be in hell – they are just as beautiful and as pure as we are in a spiritual sense.

With that said, there are many times I get caught in a cycle of “What Now?”.  Meaning, I know I came here to learn, but sometimes I get confused as to what it is I’m learning.  Right now, I’m in that state of confusion.

I’ll get out of this, but in the meantime I feel as if everything I say doesn’t make sense.  It’s like I’m speaking jibberish.  Literally as I speak to others they turn away, cut me off, or just walk away as if I’m not speaking.  It’s an odd feeling.  I’d say I’ve got some energies stuck somewhere.

I wish my sanctuary outside didn’t get destroyed by the wind.  I really could balance there.

Meditation Corner 3/10/08
Happily updated by: monicaford.

In my backyard I want to create a sanctuary, or meditation area. This is it, pretty blank – but because of that tree in particular, the energy there is really good!

I was thinking water, table… not sure what else. My friend is coming this weekend to assist.

Any ideas?