Posts Tagged ‘sad’

I’ve always expressed how I’m feeling and what I want through music, although I don’t recommend anyone listening to all of these at once ( ) it’s just how I’m feeling now.

Pixie wasn’t my cat, but was a good buddy of Daisy.  I wanted to just put this picture up of the Rainbow Bridge for Pixie who took a journey to the rainbow bridge this past weekend according to her post.

I would like to acknowledge sweet Pixie, and it brings to mind my own loss of Sam.

We lost one of our own this summer and it’s extremely difficult for me to discuss – so I’ll just put up these photos and wish Pixie’s family all the love and light I can muster.

This is a tribute to the both of them.

I hope Pixie and our Sammy are playin’ together and we’ll see you on the Rainbow Bridge our dear friends.

Hugs Daisy and kitten kisses.

I just saw the movie “10 Questions for the Dailai Lama“.

I would like to ask each of you with a moment to comment – even short, did you know about what “Free Tibet” and the movement, and the history of what happened to the Tibetan people really meant?

After watching this, then researching I’m going to have to openly admit I had no idea what any of this meant. Right down to the “Boycott the Olympics” and the censorship happening via Google, Microsoft… etc.

Can you tell me? Please?

Do you know what has been happening there? In Tibet? To the people of Tibet?

I’m extremely shocked, embarrassed (that I didn’t pay attention), and a ton sad.

I have four children.  At times, each has had hard times.  Each time those times come, I’m a momma and I assist in whatever way I can.  I do this with love. 

I have a child right now that is struggling at an important transitional part of his life.  Because of this, I’m worried… sad… frightened… and above all, my love for him doesn’t fade or flicker one bit.  I stand by him pointing to the direction *I* think would be best for him.  Sometimes he looks to me and follows where I point, other times… he drifts off, searching for the direction himself.

 

I have been taught, and generally know, our lives are a learning experience.  Those experiences at times, are difficult.  However, the experiences we go through are truly our own.  His life and his learning is his own.  I know this.  It is still difficult watching choices being made that I know will have him struggling (in my own opinion) – uneccessarily.  Again, it’s truly not mine to judge – only to continue to stand steadfast and point in the direction I know will be *easier* for him.

It’s a struggle within myself.  Sometimes I feel like *yanking* him in the direction I’m pointing.  But then, my understanding of life lessons come into play.

There are people that continuously tell me what I am doing seems like I don’t care.  I don’t respond to him as they believe I should.  Advice from others are streamed in a steady wave at times.  I do listen, but I always end up going with what I *feel* is perfect at the time.  I run very much from inner knowing, and unconditional love.  So many people – so many "you aren’t hard enough", "you should just give up", "I can’t believe you’ve let it get this far." 

Luckilly, it’s not drugs.  But it is very important… he’s failing in school.  He just gives up on himself.  Where did he learn that?  Hmmmm…. I think I know.  I could do the "wish I woulda" or "wish I didn’t", but why?  I’m doing what I believe to be perfect for him now.  He’s almost an adult – what else can I do but respond with love, guidance and a certain amount of pressure?

I guess I’m tired of hearing the things others keep saying I’m doing wrong.  I’m tired of the negativity he gets from others.  It just seems to make him give up.  He’ll learn, in the meantime I will do as I know how.  Love him like the momma I am, and pray he hears me when I say he’s perfect.

Love and Light,

~Mon~

(all photos are from photobucket.com)

Stephen’s back from his 2nd training at Impact Trainings in Utah.  He came home energized and really excited about what he learned and the group he left.  From what he said it was a sad goodbye because they all got so close in the trainings. 

He was one of 9 kids that got to speak at their graduation out of 92 kids.  I’m really proud of him.  He’s come along way in just the six days of training he’s had.  He used to be quite withdrawn and now he’s looking forward to potentially assisting in training another group there.  He does have another training called Lift Off coming up in May and that will be the last one.

My other son Jimmy went to the first one, but we couldn’t get him out of school to go to the second training.  Maybe the next Summit training he’ll be able to go to.

Daniel and I are going in May to the adult version of the courses.  I’ll let you know how I do. 

Love and Light,

Monica

There are times when I feel so filled with gratitude that I wonder if anyone can see it around me.  I wonder if an “aura” eminates from a person when they feel so free.

What do you think?  Can folks around you “feel” when you are sad, lonely, happy, excited?