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Yes, we have alot of last names in the house.  Two are Nichols, two are Ford and two are Sharp.  Hey, I haven’t exactly changed my last name yet.  I will though… don’t you fret!

Now, on to the fun at the house!

First, my three kids thought it would be great to take a photo for me and I was so excited to get it!  They used my camera and a tri-pod and even got Indy to look at the camera by throwing something in the direction of the tri-pod!  LOL  They did great!

L – R

Jessica (19), James (18), Indy (10 mos), Stephen (16)

My babies.

Missing is my step-son, he wasn’t there that day.  So they are going to take more photos with the blonde child (my only blonde kid – my step-son)!

That night we had a major blast playing Cherades (hm, spelled right?) and that was beyond halarious.

Tonight, Ice Cream social.  I know it’s cold, but who could turn down ice cream?!

OH!  I bought a new phone!  The Google Android G1 thingy!  I was a BlackBerry die hard for 3 years, and just went to the T-Mobile G1.  GREAT so far!

I’m gonna get back on after the ice cream and answe comments ’cause I just love you all so!

Love and Light

Mon

We raise our children in the hopes that no pain will befall them.

I personally cringe when one of my children stubs even a small toe.

To see our children in pain feels like an unjust thrust upon us from the Universe.

We know that cry when they are small, it’s not a whine or complaint – it’s the “mommy I need you now” cry.

What about when they are teens?

The teen “cry” is different.

At times it is almost mute, and you have to listen intently to hear their cries.

My son has once again cried out and has now been hospitalized.

Again.

This time last year he attempted suicide bringing the family to a stillness I never want to re-live.

This time, he reached out for assistance before the overdose, cutting and police SWAT team that we lived through last year.

I know in my heart this is simply something my son gets to go through.

As his mother, I can tell you with ever breath I take – I do not like it one bit.

Why couldn’t it be that they could just go through life with love, peace and happiness?

I suppose, that wouldn’t be life here would it?

Teen suicide is ridiculously high.  I even hear some folks joke about it – I’m not sure I get the joke.  Nor do I wish to.

He was diagnosed last year with Bi-Polar with Psychotic Episodes.  His medication has been working up until now – or apparently 3 weeks before now as we are finding out.

As his mom, I would just like to ask the Universe to let him be.

Let him feel calm, still, and happy with himself.

I’ll be on and off for a bit, this blog is – after all – a source of my therapy.  Don’t wig out if I’m still cheery, I just had to get some of it off my heart in this post.  My outlook on all things in life is positive.  Even those things that seem to pull my heart right out of my chest.

He’ll come home happy and healthy as he did last time – I just know it.

Love and Healing Light to all of you ~ Monica

My Son Stephen 2007-09-28

Update on Stephen 2007-10-07

Stephen June 2007

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My son has requested that I place his writings up on my site for my readers to comment on or at least read.  He’s a heavy writer, and it seems that journaling while he’s hospitalized feels good to him.  Although I haven’t read it yet, I’ll see what I can do to set up a page for him and either type exactly as he has it, or I’ll perhaps place portions of it up.  I’ll post here when I create it.

(photos and graphics other than my son were found from Photobucket – just type “teen”)