Posts Tagged ‘peace’

I was taught that everything, everything happens for a reason and I accept that.  I accept the things that hurt us are simply what we get to go through in this human experience.  But that doesn’t mean I’m not human and I don’t FEEL when things hurt.

I’m human and what I’ve seen today makes my HUMAN part so flippin’ ANGRY!

For those in Mumbai, we hear you and feel for you.  I saw the news break when me and my hubby were at lunch and I looked around the room as folks were laughing, chatting, not seeing the TV but on with their lives and mine felt like it stopped abruptly.  I have no part in any of this, I have no family there – I know now one there – but these are our brothers and sisters!  I don’t control my feelings well, and this tragedy felt like I got yanked in to misery…. not a pleasant experience!

Oh this whole terrorism cr*p gets to get buried somewhere.

I’m tired of humans being so stupid!

… argh … a vent, but it washed over me with a HUGE amount of empathy when I saw that, the news report the people…

ARGH!

PEACE PEOPLE PEACE

Why is that such a difficult concept for some humans!

::sigh::

For those in India, or anyone that’s been directly or indirectly effected (the WORLD!) – I can only send light and love to you.  But know we hear you and you are loved.

YOU ARE LOVED

… sometimes, I’m not cautious – I feel like I get pulled so strongly into feeling SO much of the world …

There are so many references on the web, Twitter, Blogs, Flickr… right now, there are still issues going on.  One link:  http://www.cnn.com/2008/WORLD/asiapcf/11/26/mumbai.attacks.web.sites/index.html

From that site:

Help number

The State Department has established a Consular Call Center for Americans concerned about family or friends visiting or living in Mumbai, India. The number is 888-407-4747.

I believe there is one for Great Britain as well.

We raise our children in the hopes that no pain will befall them.

I personally cringe when one of my children stubs even a small toe.

To see our children in pain feels like an unjust thrust upon us from the Universe.

We know that cry when they are small, it’s not a whine or complaint – it’s the “mommy I need you now” cry.

What about when they are teens?

The teen “cry” is different.

At times it is almost mute, and you have to listen intently to hear their cries.

My son has once again cried out and has now been hospitalized.

Again.

This time last year he attempted suicide bringing the family to a stillness I never want to re-live.

This time, he reached out for assistance before the overdose, cutting and police SWAT team that we lived through last year.

I know in my heart this is simply something my son gets to go through.

As his mother, I can tell you with ever breath I take – I do not like it one bit.

Why couldn’t it be that they could just go through life with love, peace and happiness?

I suppose, that wouldn’t be life here would it?

Teen suicide is ridiculously high.  I even hear some folks joke about it – I’m not sure I get the joke.  Nor do I wish to.

He was diagnosed last year with Bi-Polar with Psychotic Episodes.  His medication has been working up until now – or apparently 3 weeks before now as we are finding out.

As his mom, I would just like to ask the Universe to let him be.

Let him feel calm, still, and happy with himself.

I’ll be on and off for a bit, this blog is – after all – a source of my therapy.  Don’t wig out if I’m still cheery, I just had to get some of it off my heart in this post.  My outlook on all things in life is positive.  Even those things that seem to pull my heart right out of my chest.

He’ll come home happy and healthy as he did last time – I just know it.

Love and Healing Light to all of you ~ Monica

My Son Stephen 2007-09-28

Update on Stephen 2007-10-07

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My son has requested that I place his writings up on my site for my readers to comment on or at least read.  He’s a heavy writer, and it seems that journaling while he’s hospitalized feels good to him.  Although I haven’t read it yet, I’ll see what I can do to set up a page for him and either type exactly as he has it, or I’ll perhaps place portions of it up.  I’ll post here when I create it.

(photos and graphics other than my son were found from Photobucket – just type “teen”)

I’m not going to state whom I’m voting for here, although I’ve made it pretty clear on the comments I’ve left for others to contribute to their discussions on their blogs.

What I’m going to do here is tell you *my* view on the stars of the show ’cause there is so much negativity on each of them, I had to put out there my own views.  ‘Cause it’s my blog and I’m allowed to write on it.

Go figure.

#1 and let me be very clear here, I am a proud American.  That statement alone gets me into trouble as of late, but I am.  I love my country, and I love the countries of my ancestors: Sweden, Norway and Portugal.  I’m quite the mix.  I am 4th generation American on my father’s side and 3rd generation on my mother’s side (far as I know).

With that, let’s get to Monica’s Opinions:

Mr. Obama – This man has broken barriers!  Do I care about his “color” as I keep hearing others (media really) discussing?  Um, no.  Color to me is:  The grass is green, the sky is blue, my shirt is pink.  That is color to me.  I don’t see color when it comes to people, I see the beautiful spirit within – and that doesn’t have a color that I can explain.  Kudos to you Obama for running as hard has you have during this election!  It’s obvious you are a star.

Mrs. Obama – She said some things in her past about the country I love that I don’t agree with, but heck, we are all allowed to.  In moments of disgust I’ve been known to shout a bit.  As for her color?  Um… I don’t see any.  No issue there.  Folks say her speech was “drippy” and “overdone”.  Her hubby is running for President.  She’s going to do what she will to assist.  Why is it so hard to believe she’s a loving woman?  You go Michelle!

Obama’s VP – Um, I know nothing about him.  He did say some things about Obama negatively I guess, but he was probobly a HIllary supported.  He was saying what he wanted to.  Leave it be.  I’m sure he’s a great guy.

John McCain – So he’s older?  Do older people have to go inside and stop their lives at a certain age?  He believes in the U.S. and wants to do his part.  I don’t see an issue.  Sounds like he’s quite a people person, and a person that keeps to his ethics and morals that he believes in.

Cindy McCain – I wish I saw more about her.  I’m hearing she’s very much into philanthropy.  I wonder why we don’t hear about her more?  You go Cindy!

Mrs. Palin – She’s really neat I think.  Here’s a momma with kids that go through stuff our neighbors go through, or even us.  Sounds like she’s a good lady and heck she has 2 international boarders to deal with!  You go girl!

Do any of these folks, in my mind, show the potential that is important to me – enlightenment and true value for peace and service to others?  No.

To me, these folks are general people doing extraordinary things, but to bring on the peace that I would personally like to see?  None of them show signs.

So, I’ll simply vote for the one I believe is the best out of them all.

Wow, what an election!

I’m not going to post my opinion or who I’m gonna vote for or who I won’t… or anything like that here.  I’m just gonna voice how I *feel* about the state of things…

We have a Presidential election this year.  We’ll have a new President in office.  Oh how I worry about things like this… now.  Before, I didn’t really even look much to outside of my home affairs.  That’s changed because my focus has changed. 

I personally have this thought of world peace.  Complete peace.  Everyone having what they need and a bit of what they want.  Total universal unconditional love.  Clothing, Food, Shelter, Water and Medicine.

I will refer to Star Trek here for a momento.  Yes, I’m a Trekkie and proud of it.  Whoot!  In Star Trek the Earth is one.  One.  Not broken up, but one.  There is no going hungry, no shortage of food, no folks without homes to go to.  There isn’t even cancer.  The cold and HIV and all other types of sicknesses that we deal with now are gone.  One simple *shot* and you are over cancer.  Nice. 

There are issues in Star Trek with other worlds.  So it’s not pure perfection.  But Earth is happy and is One.

This coming election isn’t Star Trek related, just to me – I watch the candidates, I watch the news, I listen to folks voice their opinions.  I wonder where and when we are going to make a shift?

There are those that comment on my blog and read my blog from other places on Earth.  Before I blogged I didn’t have any sort of contact with anyone outside my state of California let alone outside of the continent.  I appreciate you… all of you from everywhere.  The UK is the second largest visiting location – US is the first.  But there are many different country locations that do find my space here.

I read blogs with so many thoughts on peace and unified thoughts and desires.  I find it absolutely beautiful.  I do know now for sure that we are all alike in so many ways… and different in a way that makes us human. 

… can’t I just ask for peace and happiness and have it happen? …

How difficult could it really be?

Love and Light Friends ~ I appreciate all of you.

As I was perusing "SplitBrain’s" blog, he had a meme on there of what color are you.  Colors are very important to me and my most favorite color is green.  So I thought I’d give it a go.  These things are so fun!

Here’s mine! I’m my favorite color…

I took this photo in July in Utah. How I wish I had this as a background to my home.

For some reason as of late, I’m eager for nature…

To be honest, I ache for it.

Enjoy the photo…

Love and Light,

Monica

We’ve been travelling to Utah from California since May to go to our trainings out there. This was the first time we had any time to see what was actually around. Thanks for our friend Kevin we got a bit of nature…. ahhhhhhhhhhhh.

I’ve got a few that I’m going to see if I can play with but this one jumped out at me… I was taking a photo of a pathway that made me feel an instant feeling of… well, peace.

When I really looked at the photo on the computer and I haven’t enhanced I noticed the rays of light only today.

Wow.

Love and beautiful rays of light to all of you that take the time to visit my little peice of webness…

Monica