Posts Tagged ‘grateful’

This seems to be video 4 in my series this week.

I’m very much looking inside of myself right now – thus all of the sappy videos.

I am so grateful for my family.  I am so grateful for my friends.  I am so grateful for my life.

This video is called “How Could Anyone” by Shaina Noll.  This brings a lump to my throat for a number of reasons.  One, and foremost it reminds me of my sister and how much I love her.  We were out of touch for over 10 years.  We found each other luckilly again and made amends for what we don’t even remember being an issue.

Please listen to this song because it can mean so many things to each person.

“How could anyone ever tell you, you were anything less than beautiful… ”

Well let us see how last night went shall we?

I was trying to get this blog in some kinda order after changing hosts. I have a temporary Wordpress Theme up, but I like how it’s situated. Just not the colors or lack thereof. But, when I went to have fun and change stuff around the most HUGEST (is that a word?) headache hit like a ton of bricks. Oh my goodness. Then, it was so bad I felt sick. So, off the computer I went and straight to bed.

Then, the hubby comes home – bless his heart. Dotting all over me and taking care of me like the wonderful hubby he is. We watched Ghost Whisperer Season Two Disc Two – one or two episodes and I was done. I had a pounding headache and felt like crud.

Then, we got into an argument. A new one? No… more of the same thing. It didn’t end well so this morning I got on the phone and told him I was sorry. Lordy. Lordy. Being married means so many things, but one thing it means is ya can’t get away from them. LOL So you better make up.

Making up is fun actually. He’s been so wonderful lately, I guess feeling sick mixed with other stuff just set me off. No bigge – we *kissed* and made up so to speak.

It’s been rough here. He’s working so hard and my client base has dwindled due to so many things. So I’m barely making it financially. Which means, he’s doing all the work. I’m at home taking care of the house, making sure my kids get all their school stuff done, and working on the clients I have left – ’cause I love them and am very grateful to have them.

My kids are both in Independent Study now. It’s like homeschooling really. I have their schedule every day of what they need to do, I meet with their teacher once a week to get more work for them and turn in their assignments (rather, they do that – I take notes). BUT their report cards came in! WOW! It’s the biggest improvement I’ve ever seen from them. They are so proud! So is this momma.

So my husband is working away while I’m doing all of these things that are important – but, what happened to me holding my own financially? I was the sole supporter for over 10 years now I’m home? It’s a huge adjustment.

I’m starting school on the 20th of this month. I’m almost embarassed to say what for ’cause I’ve been laughed at a few times. But I’ll say it here – and let me be very clear this is what I had wanted since I was young, but babies etc. well… you know what happens to plans when you have the little ones. Okay, my major is Physics. Yes, laugh all ya want. Who knows I could change my mind. I’m already an Accountant, this would be a complete career change that will take YEARS to get to. But there are some really neat opportunities just in the first year of being an undergraduate! No laughing… okay, you can laugh. We’ll see how far this goes, but at least I can go for it!

In February I’ll be 41 years old/young. I’m so extremely excited about my 40s! It’s me time after my Stephen is graduated in June of 2010. That’s not that far away. Jimmy goes into the USMC on June 14th, and my daughter is already out and on her own. I do have my Step Son Daniel that will be 14 (OMG!) on the 11th of this month, but his momma does all the hard work with him. I just get to love him to death when we get him. So I’m almost done… wow.

Many things are going on now in my life – I just want to be sure I enjoy ever moment of it you know?

Wow, life is Grand!

This morning I decided to peruse all of my feeds from everyone!  That has had me busy all day.  For dozens of reasons.  Oh to veg and blog.

First blog I came to ~ 2 Witches Blog ~ Mama Kelly did a “Blogging My Blessings” post.  It was wonderful and I was so glad that was the first one I clicked on.

Second blog I went to ~ Adventures of Loving Annie ~ Annie had been tagged to do a Gratitude Meme!  So I got to read what she was greatful for!

Oh what a day!  Grateful gratitudes galore!

So, I’m taking Annie up on her Meme “Gratitude Meme” and putting my little bit of love here.

I’m grateful for the breath I take.  Each day I get to be alive I’m grateful for the chance to be here on this earth having this physical existence and simply *being*.

I’m grateful for the spirits I share this life with.  My family, my friends, my bloggy friends, my clients, my dog, my neighbors and those that don’t like me.  Each person (or puppy) is here because we are sharing a learning experience.  Hey, even those that don’t like me much.  Ofcourse, there simply can’t be that many!

I’m grateful for my knowledge.  I have my own company, I can read, I can write, I can type and I can kinda maneuver around the internet!  LOL

I’m grateful for the cooling breezes I feel at night when the day has been so hot.

I’m grateful for the darkness.  Because with out the black in the night sky you simply wouldn’t be able to see the stars.

Love and Light dear friends.  Thank you for sharing my blog experience too!

Mon

This is day 1 of my week of posts of “What I’m Most Thankful For”.

Day 1 – My Daughter Jessica

While growing up, there was no way in the world I wanted kids. I cannot say I was one of those teen girls that fantasized about getting married to my soul mate and having babies. For me, that was the furthest from my mind. I didn’t want, or need a man. OR anyone for that matter. I was a very angry teen, who wanted to be alone. I wanted a career in the Air Force. Period.

At 20 I was told promptly by a Planned Parenthood employee that my pregnancy test was positive. That was 1988. I figured that solved the mystery of why I felt ill and bloated. I was 6 weeks pregnant with Jessica.

My baby girl, Jessie, was born 3/21/1989 and didn’t utter a sound. The doctor and nurses all became quite hushed. Afterall, babies usually cry as they let the air into their lungs. Not my girl, she refused to make a scene and simply stared directly at me. No lie. It was an uncomfortable silence for a new mother.

I’ve learned silence is golden throughout her rough teen times. She is my daughter, very very very independent and full of life. I never ever – not even once – regreted keeping my baby girl. I was a single mother when she was born and knew I’d be just fine raising her all by myself. I even told the father he could just “fade away” for all I cared.

Yes, remember…. I was an angry person and didn’t care much about anyone back then. EXCEPT – Jessica. Her birth changed me forever.

Headstrong runs through the Nichols’ women. I come from a long line of women who take care of their kids. Alone at times. She certainly got the “headstrong” portion and that played a role in a very turbulent teen time for her. We did make it out alive!

Jessica – Then (1989)

Jessica – Now Graduation w/ Daniel (2007)

She’s beautiful, happy and healthy. She lives with her boyfriend and works and goes to college now. I miss my little girl and love her and thank her for showing me I can be a beautiful, loving, caring person. She was my salvation.

Day 1 – My daughter.

On This Beautiful Day there are Souls entering

and Leaving Our Existence.

Right now, in this moment I choose to BE

and to tell you right now, right here…

I’m grateful for you sharing this moment and time with me