Posts Tagged ‘embarassed’

Well let us see how last night went shall we?

I was trying to get this blog in some kinda order after changing hosts. I have a temporary Wordpress Theme up, but I like how it’s situated. Just not the colors or lack thereof. But, when I went to have fun and change stuff around the most HUGEST (is that a word?) headache hit like a ton of bricks. Oh my goodness. Then, it was so bad I felt sick. So, off the computer I went and straight to bed.

Then, the hubby comes home – bless his heart. Dotting all over me and taking care of me like the wonderful hubby he is. We watched Ghost Whisperer Season Two Disc Two – one or two episodes and I was done. I had a pounding headache and felt like crud.

Then, we got into an argument. A new one? No… more of the same thing. It didn’t end well so this morning I got on the phone and told him I was sorry. Lordy. Lordy. Being married means so many things, but one thing it means is ya can’t get away from them. LOL So you better make up.

Making up is fun actually. He’s been so wonderful lately, I guess feeling sick mixed with other stuff just set me off. No bigge – we *kissed* and made up so to speak.

It’s been rough here. He’s working so hard and my client base has dwindled due to so many things. So I’m barely making it financially. Which means, he’s doing all the work. I’m at home taking care of the house, making sure my kids get all their school stuff done, and working on the clients I have left – ’cause I love them and am very grateful to have them.

My kids are both in Independent Study now. It’s like homeschooling really. I have their schedule every day of what they need to do, I meet with their teacher once a week to get more work for them and turn in their assignments (rather, they do that – I take notes). BUT their report cards came in! WOW! It’s the biggest improvement I’ve ever seen from them. They are so proud! So is this momma.

So my husband is working away while I’m doing all of these things that are important – but, what happened to me holding my own financially? I was the sole supporter for over 10 years now I’m home? It’s a huge adjustment.

I’m starting school on the 20th of this month. I’m almost embarassed to say what for ’cause I’ve been laughed at a few times. But I’ll say it here – and let me be very clear this is what I had wanted since I was young, but babies etc. well… you know what happens to plans when you have the little ones. Okay, my major is Physics. Yes, laugh all ya want. Who knows I could change my mind. I’m already an Accountant, this would be a complete career change that will take YEARS to get to. But there are some really neat opportunities just in the first year of being an undergraduate! No laughing… okay, you can laugh. We’ll see how far this goes, but at least I can go for it!

In February I’ll be 41 years old/young. I’m so extremely excited about my 40s! It’s me time after my Stephen is graduated in June of 2010. That’s not that far away. Jimmy goes into the USMC on June 14th, and my daughter is already out and on her own. I do have my Step Son Daniel that will be 14 (OMG!) on the 11th of this month, but his momma does all the hard work with him. I just get to love him to death when we get him. So I’m almost done… wow.

Many things are going on now in my life – I just want to be sure I enjoy ever moment of it you know?

Wow, life is Grand!

His Holiness The Dalai Lama

I just saw the movie “10 Questions for the Dailai Lama“.

I would like to ask each of you with a moment to comment – even short, did you know about what “Free Tibet” and the movement, and the history of what happened to the Tibetan people really meant?

After watching this, then researching I’m going to have to openly admit I had no idea what any of this meant. Right down to the “Boycott the Olympics” and the censorship happening via Google, Microsoft… etc.

Can you tell me? Please?

Do you know what has been happening there? In Tibet? To the people of Tibet?

I’m extremely shocked, embarrassed (that I didn’t pay attention), and a ton sad.

Jean-Luc at Captain Picard’s Journal always has really interesting Weekend Questions.  This one is kinda embarassing for me.

“What sports will you be most interested in watching during the Olympics and why? List as many as you like.”

Well, with everyone watching the Olympics I’m maybe one of the only ones that doesn’t.  Oh and I feel so shamed!    It’s a worldwide event and I’m not interested?!

I have this issue about sitting at the TV.  I can sit at the computer forever, but not the TV.

So, with Jean-Luc’s question I thought I’d see if I can get into it a bit more.

I hope they are on Demand on my cable TV!

Here’s My list of what I’d MOST like to watch:

• Syncronized Swimming
• Judo
• Fencing
• Diving
• Taekwondo
• Rhythmic Gymnastics

My babysitter, when I was a wee gal, had me watch the Synchronized Swimming all of the time.  Her granddaughter was in the Olympics when I was little and she did that event.  Oh so beautiful!

I remember watching wondering how the music goes through to the pool without someone getting electrified.

Thank you Jean-Luc, I think you may be the reason I actually watch this year!  (Oh the shame of it all!)

The 2007 Holiday Fantasy Bra is in. 

Yes, I said "bra".  It is because of a piece of under garment that I write this blog post.  (It’s been a slow week)

First of all, if my undies had gemstones on it… I’d wonder what I was thinkin’.  Secondly, over 9,000 gemstones on a piece of undie garment could get um, heavy?  

"Gee Mon, why are you leaning forward like that?"  Wow, that would be a bit much.

Oh say, and how would you wash it?  

I personally love Victoria’s Secret.  There, ya’ll know it.  It’s my personal little um, well… nevermind.

So, today I was perusing the Holiday edition of the VS catalog – they always have THE best things in there!  (oh my talking about undies catalogue now).  Comon’ the PJs are cute!

Then…. after I turned the pages frantically, there she was – Selita Ebanks – modeling the 2007 Fantasy set.  The price?  I always look at that first just to gasp as if I didn’t know already… $4.5M.  Writing that out here:  4,500,000.00USD.  Yup.  You read it correctly.

Here’s the article from October of 2007 USA today article:  Victoria’s Secret has a gem-dandy fantasy. 

So, who’s buyin’?

(::giggles insanely::)

That much money… lets see, I could feed – clothe – house quite a few folks in need.  I’m afraid this year I’m not buyin’ the fantasy undies set.  However, there certainly are those in the 2 for 1 sales range that I can safely maneuver.  I’ll stick to cotton, er… or whatever.

Love and Light,

Monica (so confused and slightly embarassed of her own post)

Jennifer, TruthDancer, at her Blog Goodness Gracious asked her readers to write the world as they would like to see it.  I took her challenge, but then thought I’d take it up a notch tonight.

When I was at the grocery store there was a young woman and a teenage girl in front of me.  I wasn’t paying attention to much other than getting my own groceries on the conveyor belt.  But I noticed the young woman appologizing and saying she’d be right back.  The grocery clerk nicely smiled and told her not to worry, her belongings would be right there and that she was sorry.

I asked the clerk as the young woman was leaving if she was short on cash.  The clerk hushed me as if not to embarass the young woman.  But I insisted as the young lady walked away.

The clerk said she would be right back that she was a regular.  She said the young woman had just had a child and was a bit short on her amount and would definately be back. 

I remember once as a single mother sitting in line with my three little ones and coming up WAY short on my grocery bill.  The man behind me, that I did not know paid for me.  He wouldn’t take a no.

Tonight, I continued to ask the cashier who was a beautiful caring lady who told me about how when she was 8 she and her friend bought food for a homeless person and how wonderful that felt to them.  She said she’d never forget it.

I finished paying my bill as she was getting the groceries into my cart and I told her I derserved to assist that young woman and that I absolutely would pay her bill.  She saw I wouldn’t take no, and she rang it up.  Her response was "I wish there were more people in this world like you".  I told her there most definately are.  I also told her there are more and more like this every day.

This is my view of a perfect world.  Where we check off "Other" on our applications instead of individual races and write in "Human".

United is the perfect world I see, and giving.

Love and Light,

Monica