Posts Tagged ‘belief’

I have said a few times here on my blog I’m not Christian.  For whatever reason I always feel the need to say that.  Although I’m not sure why.  I was born and raised Catholic (my cousin was a Sister – nun), and my relatives on my mom’s side were very religious.  We didn’t follow it much.  But that’s not the story here.

When I was a teen I really got into the whole Church thing – there was a local church that had a really good teen program and I completely loved going.  Although, it didn’t feel right that I went and didn’t *convert*.  So I said I was Christian.  Then, after my first marriage went funky – my husband at the time and I did another *convert* to Church of Latter Day Saints (Mormanism).  I loved that church!  They were very family oriented, and in a marriage falling apart that was a breath of fresh air.  Then divorce and a HUGE amount of *stuff* happened and I never went back.

The missionaries with the Church came to me and began attempting to assist me back into the Church.  I so enjoyed them, and the folks at the Church but I just blurted out – “I do not believe I should worship Jesus Christ.  He was a good man, but there are many of those.  I am not Christian.”  And with that – I was done church hopping.

Let me be VERY clear – in no way do I believe anyone’s faith is incorrect for them.  Just because I don’t believe in it doesn’t mean I think everyone is incorrect!  So we are clear on that.  I love everyone.  Period.  But I do have some pretty specific beliefs.    I won’t go into that here.

With all of that – I just ran across “What Do You Believe?” on How’s Bradley’s blog.  I read what he had and went to Belief.net and took the Belief-O-Matic test.  That was pretty neat!  Here are my top five results after the test:

1. New Age (100%)
2. Neo-Pagan (96%)
3. Mahayana Buddhism (90%)
4. New Thought (83%)
5. Unitarian Universalism (83%)

The funny thing is, I truly have no label.  I guess I can say now New Age and maybe that will make sense to some.  But, no… what I believe in isn’t new.  I’m not sure – so I just say “Non-Christian”. 

What I believe doesn’t have a building to go to on a certain day.  What I believe in isn’t really something with a name – they all seem to fall short.  What I believe in I can’t join a group.  Well, not if I don’t know where they are!

But, hey… it’s my belief and I love it.

Love and Light to all of you of every belief.  I love you tons!

Yes I do.

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Harold Ford 2/19/1938 - 10/27/2007

I didn’t know what else to call this post, but I do have to say I don’t feel like we are completely without him you know?  I always seem to catch a fragrance (smoke), hear a laugh, or something to remind us of him – he’s still very much around.

That’s my belief, take it or leave it – but it’s really a knowing.  Harold loves us mucho.  The old “coot” said he’d haunt us, so why not? 

Harold died of cancer on this day in 2007.  So many of us where effected in so many ways, too many to imagine.

My husband – oh to lose your father, I cannot begin to imagine.

My kids, who only where around him for a few years – were very effected and it broke my heart watching them grieve.

His grandchildren – what can you say to that grief?

Friends, Family – all of us where touched in so many different ways by him.

He’s wasn’t some sweet little old guy though.  Nope.  Well, not on the outside… he was a burly kinda rough Navy kinda guy.  He’s tell you to “kiss off” quite quickly and the next breath laugh his butt off if you tripped and fell.  You just had to shake your head and laugh at him.  He always lived life being truthful to who he was and not worrying what others thought.

I miss you Harold, and as of today… one year after you ditched your 3 dimensional body for a beautiful light spirity one – I have not smoked for over 10 days.  Ha!

I miss you miss you miss you.

So does your son, in such a huge way……

Love and Light,

Your “Honorary Daughter”

For You Harold – A Soft Goodbye