Face to the Sun By Hikari Nell
As some of you know my son has been hospitalized off and on since September 2007. He made another attempt on his life this past Tuesday, greatfully unsuccessfully. Scary enough.
Stephen is in the hospital again and will be there for a bit.
I suppose I’ve come to realize that this is simply what our family gets to go through for whatever reason in the Universe. As with parents with children with special needs, or perhaps a horrible medical issue – we simply continue on. We love him, we support him and we are here to pick up the pieces no matter how difficult they are to find.
I am new in my job, so I certainly cannot miss any time. To be quite honest, I am thankful for my job and the time it gives me to focus on something else. I am still very excited about my job – and enjoy it daily. I don’t stop to think about much during the day but my work.
The weekend is here though, and I get to relax and to reflect.
I’m not falling apart. I’m only extremely greatful that I have this beautiful child and he’s still with us. The Universe must have thought I was strong enough to assist him through what he is going through – that’s why he’s my son.
I’m only thoughtful right now. Not down. That’s different than the 4 other times. I suppose I just get to be a momma and fight to keep my child safe. Safe from himself and from the doctors that are merely guessing at what they can do to assist.
We do need to locate a person to be here with him during the day while I work – he cannot be left alone.
So – when we have things happen to us, I believe that being greatful and looking at the positveness of life brings us through even the darkest of times.
I can tell you my list of greatfullnesses (my special word for the day) is extremely long and beautiful.
To each of you that may be going through your own bought of rough spots – I hold your hand and walk through it with you.
Life is beautiful.
Love and Light,
~Monica~
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Hi Monica!
I am glad to see Stephen still holding your attention and support. Hang in there sweetie, and hope for the best. The tough times will pass and soon ul be smiling again. Big Hugs!
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Awww, thanks Mariuca! The hugs are the best. We are definitely hangin’ in!
I can not imagine what you must be going through…will be keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers
(((HUGS)))
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Georgie – Thank you so much!
I appreciate you!
You are a strong person and the best mom for Stephen. I don’t know if comforting words from a complete stranger means much but I cannot just drop and run. Being a mom myself, I cannot imagine what you’re going through. I hope the doctors will find the best treatment for him.
Babette ~ Thank you very much. I too go to blogs where folks are having tough times and you really feel for them. Although I don’t personally know you – you are no stranger.
Thank you!
This is the first time I’ve read anything about your son. I’m so sorry. You must be a very strong woman. It’s inspiring and I hope that everything works out for the best.
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Thank you Penny! It will all work out! I just know it…
Thank you thank you!
I can only say that no matter how serious some issues or situations seem, there is hope and things do get better with time.
Hang on! Best for you and your family.
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Thank you Zhu! So far so good!
Awe Monica… Wow you are truly an inspiration and please know your son, yourself and your family are in my thoughts (and I hope its alright to say and my prayers). Your such a strong woman and a loving and good mother…. There is always hope…..awe I hope the new Nanny works out….
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Susan – first, oh yes please on the prayers. Prayers are beautiful
Thank you thank you! I’ll let you know on the Nanny. I can only imagine what this is gonna be like!