This is day 1 of my week of posts of “What I’m Most Thankful For”.
Day 1 – My Daughter Jessica
While growing up, there was no way in the world I wanted kids. I cannot say I was one of those teen girls that fantasized about getting married to my soul mate and having babies. For me, that was the furthest from my mind. I didn’t want, or need a man. OR anyone for that matter. I was a very angry teen, who wanted to be alone. I wanted a career in the Air Force. Period.
At 20 I was told promptly by a Planned Parenthood employee that my pregnancy test was positive. That was 1988. I figured that solved the mystery of why I felt ill and bloated. I was 6 weeks pregnant with Jessica.
My baby girl, Jessie, was born 3/21/1989 and didn’t utter a sound. The doctor and nurses all became quite hushed. Afterall, babies usually cry as they let the air into their lungs. Not my girl, she refused to make a scene and simply stared directly at me. No lie. It was an uncomfortable silence for a new mother.
I’ve learned silence is golden throughout her rough teen times. She is my daughter, very very very independent and full of life. I never ever – not even once – regreted keeping my baby girl. I was a single mother when she was born and knew I’d be just fine raising her all by myself. I even told the father he could just “fade away” for all I cared.
Yes, remember…. I was an angry person and didn’t care much about anyone back then. EXCEPT – Jessica. Her birth changed me forever.
Headstrong runs through the Nichols’ women. I come from a long line of women who take care of their kids. Alone at times. She certainly got the “headstrong” portion and that played a role in a very turbulent teen time for her. We did make it out alive!
Jessica – Then (1989)
Jessica – Now Graduation w/ Daniel (2007)
She’s beautiful, happy and healthy. She lives with her boyfriend and works and goes to college now. I miss my little girl and love her and thank her for showing me I can be a beautiful, loving, caring person. She was my salvation.
Day 1 – My daughter.
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Beautiful post and pictures Monica! I love the cute baby picture. Your daughter is beautiful! Headstrong doesn’t have to be something negative does it? I mean, being determined [and setting goals] will always get you somewhere
Thank you for sharing
I always saw the headstrong part of me and her as very positive. It’s a strength in times where I’ve seen others fall apart.
It is difficult in the teen years though as they are already trying to break free of rules.
Otherwise, yes – positive characteristic!
Thanks Tess!
Mon
No wonder Jessica is on your list!
This is a very beautiful post. Your daughter is very beautiful, just like you. I wonder if we all go through that pissed off stage. I was very angry in my early 20′s. Sure gald I outgrew it.
Take care and wishing you a fab weekend.
Blessings,
T.
I cannot imagine your daughter’s quiet stare after her birth! I wonder if she is an "old soul" who’d been through that a good many times before … or if she just needed time to check you out! Even that baby picture looks contemplative! Love the modern picture, too! She looks very happy … they both do!
Hi Monica!
[OT sorry about that but] I’ve sent you emails about website etc. and I’m not sure if you found them, please let me know asap k? I’m eager to start! :-O
Jean Luc- Thanks, she’s definately a HUGE bit of thankful for me.
She’s goofy too, like her momma!
Titania – I’m glad I outgrew it too! Sure makes me feel very thankful when I can smile through things now. She does too…
CRAZY teen years!
Brenda – I’ll let you in on something. When the delivery room was quiet and my daughter was in the doctor’s hands facing me… he turned her to look at him, then turned her to me slowly and he said "Must be an old soul". I completely concur!
Hiya TESS! – I answered finally. It’s been a week of a bit of confusion.
But, should be okay. I even did a logo! I think…. LOL
HUGS to all of you who took the time to comment on my little one (who’s not so little anymore ::sniff:: )
Love and Beautiful light, Day 2 will be coming!
Mon